Street Strong

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 06:53:44 GMT

So I haven't posted in awhile..but I think I'm coming back to live journal, and I'm going to at least update every week! It's kinda cool, going back to my old entries and reading them! Since my last post everything has been going really great! Work is amazing I've been given days off for the last 2 weeks so that's awesome. Two of my closet friends don't work there anymore and I was terribly sad to see them go, but I know we'll always see eachother outside of work! Last week was my best friends birthday party! It was so wicked, I had so much fun, all my coworkers were there so it was great. My supervisor picked my boyfriend Will and I up in Aurora and we drove all the way to Sutton, damn I didn't know it was so far... the second we got there I started drinking lol. I haven't had a drink since the beginning of January..but man did I get loaded...I remember dancing, and showing my boss how to dance, I can barely remember that night..just that I had loads of fun, and I'm glad Will came with me, and met all of my friends. I'm extremly happy lately. Because everything seems to be falling together perfectly. My mom found a great job! I'm ecstatic about that :) I hope we can put money down on a condo or house soon! I wonder if Will will be staying with us when we move..I hope so..he's been here for like 3 weeks now..and I don't want him to leave lol... I love going to work and being with all of my best friends, and then coming home to him, Cameo, and my mom. I couldn't ask for more.. I get to see the people that matter to me most on a daily basis...I wish I could hang out with my coworkers more..but I do see them 8 hours everyday :S I also wish I could see my sister, Sarah, my nephew and twin brother more often..but I know their busy. This weekend I get to see my sister..her bday was last weekend, and mine is on the 18th so were going to celebrate together this Saturday..She's picking me up at home..early in the morning, and were going shopping at Vaughan Mills, and going for lunch..then she's going to come with me to the pow wow for awhile at York University....As for Saturday night..plans are still up in the air... I can't wait till my bday weekend!!!!! I'm hoping to go to Niagara with Will, just for one night...but it will still be fun...I want to go on the ferris wheel, and all of the haunted houses even though I've been in them all already, their still scary! :)
Cameo is doing really well..she's still out of daycare, but will be starting a new one, close to home in a couple of weeks. Well I'm going to try and get to sleep...I have to be at work 2 hours earlier tomorrow :( Check out this wicked remix I found of TOuch me Tease Me the video is pretty hot!!

New Update What...

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 17:28:47 GMT

Okay....Haven't been on livejournal for a minute...but here I am...typing..for all the peeps that read this. So far the year is going amazing. My work couldn't be any better...nothing like working along side my bestfriend, the girl is dope...her and I have the same personality... whenever I say "Schwing" She has to bust a move..even if she is talking to a coworker, or an executive..it's hilarious...yesterday I told her everytime she had to laugh..she had to laugh like The Count from sesame street.....I had to run to the washroom I almost pissed myself...cuz when she started laughing like that...people would pause for a second..and then continue working... I've met some really great people at work..ones who are going to be life long friends...my supervisor is the best! She ordered pizza last Friday for us..that was awesome... Not to mention..Jole, he's my work husband....he says things like "Jesus Murphy" and it cracks me up..I swear it's non stop laughing at work for 8 hours.....I do get my shit done at work..but I get it done with laughs..I can't wait till the 24th of Feb..it's my girl's party..it's going to be so much f'en fun! Alot of people from work are going to show up to... Well besides work...everything else is going smoothly...I'm holding off on the army for awhile..and I will be going to school, to take a makeup course, and hairdressing...it's what I'm good at. The army can always wait...plus I think I've lost some passion..all I have to do is go and pick up some papers from my doctor and drop them off to my recruiter and I've been putting it off for sometime now..oh well whatever is meant to be will be. I'm not single anymore..which is strange, because my main focus for 2007 was to remain single and focus on a future career...ha ha ha...it's not bad though...I'm surprised about how much time we've spent together..... and how long we talk on the phone..considering I don't think I've ever talked to my bestfriends more then twice over the phone.... This guy just gets me...we can just sit and laugh or give eachother this look and we know what the other is thinking...we've even sat somewhere for 8 hours just talking and joking around.....I won't say where though..it's to embaressing!! lol! ;)
I hope everything works out......so far so good....
Cameo is doing fine as well, she hasn't been in daycare for a month now...but it's because the weather has been terrible, and it's to far for my mom to walk to pick her up.... We have McDonald's Dates now...man my McDonald's up here in Richmondhill is sooo pimped out..it has 2 fire places and leather chairs, plus a huge playplace...Cameo loves going there....It's really nice, I never really get to see her, because I'm working so much...anytime with her is soo appreciated. I'm looking into getting another full time job....I want to have 2 full time jobs......or at least a part time job that pays well... in a year I want to have a condo, that's my goal..just a 2 bedroom condo that I can have a mortgage on...and pay towards something instead of paying rent, and walking away with nothing....that's my main goal is to own a condo.....or a townhouse if the price is right. Just wondering if I can surive 2 full time jobs..I'm pretty sure I can..considering that when I get home from work I'm up till around 8am anyways.... so why not work if I'm wide awake! Well this entry is getting pretty long...I hope all you lj readers are having a good as year as mine so far..........talk to ya later...ps. VanillaSteps I love you guys so much..I miss you..I hope we can go down to Niagara together for our b-day...... Even though I barely drank before..I don't drink anymore...alcohol cost 2 much, and I hate hangovers, so I've totally cut it out of my life......but we can still chill and have a good time....ttyl

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 08:34:24 GMT

Haven't posted an entry in a couple of days....I'm not totally giving up on livejournal...just sooooo busy I can barely post anymore. Hope everyone's weekend has been great. Mine has been really relaxing I slept in till 5pm lol....sooo much sleep..but I need it. Work was exhausting this week. Nothing has really changed since this year has started. No new people in my life....nothing great has happened blah blah blah blah lol
I'm still single....and keeping it like that, unless a certain someone that can keep my attention happens to come along. Cameo is doing well..she goes back to daycare soon. Hope to hit up some pow wows this summer with her..haven't been to any summer ones in quite sometime. Hoping to start getting back into my culture to...which is sooo hard to do..cuz I'm mixed....White/Native....I wonder what it would be like to belong to a certain race, and be full. Growing up and even now, I feel like I never fit in. Especially when I get people asking or assuming my nationality it really pisses me off. Another person told me I look black last week....I'm not being racist or anything but it'd be great if someone were right on the dot, and asked me..hmm Are you native and white? lol that'd be great....on another note..I hope things go smoothly with Cameo's father and I this year...I talked to him last week, and I told him I don't want to fight anymore, and when one of us gets mad, then just to calm down and talk it out...it's very hard for me to be the bigger person in this situation and to forget the hell he's put me through the last year..but god...I seriously don't want Cameo having the same hurt and anger I had when I was growing up with my parents fighting and all, things can get pretty nasty. I know him..and I know he has a good heart and that he loves Cameo, I just hope what is making him the person he is now...stops...Even though he can totally piss me off to the point of hatred.... We've been through alot together...and were both struggling as is...so I'm really counting on this relationship getting better...even though we don't like eachother, we have something that ties us together for the rest of our lives...
Still trying to get over the shock of not talking to my brother...I will never forgive him for not calling me on NewYears, and for not answering his phone to me..I don't even know what the hell I did, I don't have time for drama..and I don't have time for people who don't give a shit about me. I have close friends, and relatives that I love very much, and I know they love me...if he doesn't want to talk to me or wonder how his mother is doing, then he needs to go screw off...
I also said goodbye to my father....as far as I'm concerned he is dead. I don't think I will get over the hurt, that he didn't even call me to wish me a Merry Christmas. I despise the man...and I have a void in my life, that will never be filled. It's hard to grow up and have no male attention what so ever especially from a father. I hope he has a great life with his step sons and one day I hope he thinks about me..and maybe regrets not being in my life..just maybe he will...fuck he has a place in my heart that I can't vacate! Fucker!....I love hiM!

On another note, work is going well....I'm hoping to get transferred on the day shift sometime soon, it's all up to my plant supervisor...there are 4 spots available on days...I don't know why he couldn't make my life easier and let me go on days..considering I'm the next on the list to have that option........
well I'm going to get to bed, I have to head to the library tomorrow, and to Toronto with my mom...I hope everyone reading this has a good week! :)

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 07:39:29 GMT

The Oh Seven :)

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 08:52:46 GMT

Happy NewYear Everyone!!! Hope you all had a great year....
I rang in the new year with culture ha ha!
I spent NewYears at the Native Canadian Centre of Toronto, for a New Years Eve pow wow..it was great. I went with my mom, and my boss from work...she's also my girl's Mom. It was a nice night, alcohol free, which was cool. I love pow wows, and my culture so much, but I realize why I left the centre in my past... won't be back there again, unless it's for something seriously important. I'd really love to start learning more about my Cree nation :) Wouldn't mind heading up to Moose Factory sometime this year... it'd be friggen wicked to head up there with my 2 cousins, the only blood cousins I have. Their dad is the only one in our family that has visited MooseFactory. I feel bad because I had plans for NewYears, that I didn't officially cancel. I needed to be with my mom, and in an environment that was safe, and alochol and drug free. I wanted to ring the NewYear in, with a sober state of mind. I hardly drink as is..maybe once a month...but from now on I'm going to remain alcohol free. I don't mind if my friends drink, as long as I'm not. It's so strange because I planned on partying and drinking so much for NewYears eve..but I changed my mind.... I know this year will be great!!! Hope I get accepted into the armed forces this year, but I'm seriously considering school as well, I'll also be moving before the summer hopefully.... Well It's getting pretty late, and I'm about to head to bed...I won't be updating as much on live journal anymore, but I'll be keeping myspace updated..so check it out..it's

http://www.myspace.com/streetstrong

Check out my sister's purse company that her friend and her have established.....they are sooo busy it's crazy... their purses are getting recognized in Northern Ontario it's crazy! I'm their biggest fan for sure... I've created their myspace, and yet to add photos of their purses or of their company but it will be added sometime within this month so keep updated and look for changes okay! I'm giving my bestfriend an envyme purse for her birthday in Feb...she's going to come down and create her own purse..my sis and her friend will work their magic and in a couple of weeks she'll get it..can't wait for that.........they also throw parties as well, so if ya interested holla at them k...here's their myspace...

http://www.myspace.com/envymepurses

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 21:00:43 GMT

Haven't been online for awhile.....been so busy it's crazy..I called in sick for work today, so I could spend the day cleaning and organizing everything I received for xmas. Cameo has so many new toys it's crazy! Thanks 2 vanillasteps and my brother for getting me babyphat stuff LOVE IT, I love the perfume to and the hat...coolness! My sis bought me a babyphat make up bag...pjs..my fav vanilla body spray..ummm and so much more..a Bob Dylan Biography can't wait to start reading that... but the best thing was this Chocolate Fountain she gave Cameo and I, it's so cool..can't wait to use it. It pours out chocolate, and you can dip food in it. Xmas dinner was a blast.....turkey, stuffing...yummmm.... still have left overs gonna make a soup with it! I don't know if I can go out this weekend now... :( my mom dukes will be left alone if I do, and I don't want her to be byherself on NewYears..you know what they say, FamFirst.. Gonna make big changes in the NewYear..so far the end of this year, has been great... been talkin with someone...and so far conversation has been smooth...can't wait to see where this goes....my sis is making my purse for me! I got to design it, she makes it! Her purses are pretty popular I know she'll be famous some day ;) well I better get back to cleaning.......hope everyone had a good holiday..

Xmas soon !!!

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 02:02:56 GMT

So I've been busy since yesterday, I had to run out and get some gifts for co-workers...pretty expensive when it comes down to it. I went out lastnight with everyone from the afternoon shift, we just went to the fox and fiddle, and I had the best time ever.....I was dancing for like 3 hours straight......it's was insane....I met like 5 guys lol, but I took their numbers down, I only let one have my number. Each guy was makin me promise that I would call them today lol, but of course I didn't... I can't believe how much fun I had lastnight....I wanna go out with everyone again.... SO I'm ready for a boyfriend lol....so I'm looking, but I'm still picky...need one with ghetto class and and that's cool to chill with... likes to do the same things I like doing... no so tight, cuz I can't handle peeps who are to serious...need someone to relax with.... I can't wait for xmas..I went and picked up my turkey today :) Can't wait for to put out milk and cookies for Santa with Cameo and track him down on the interent to see where he is in the world ;) It should be fun..Well gotz to go........merry xmas lj readers

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 08:04:48 GMT

Hey Live Journal Readers!!! Joni and Vanilla Steps..and Butterfly...especially ;)
So lastnight about 5 mins to my shift, I cut myself severly... I panicked for a minute, because blood just shot out of my finger, then I rushed over to the sink, and just let the blood drain a little.....eventually there were a couple of people standing around me which made things a little stressful. I should have gone to the hospital to get stitches, and to get a tetanus shot. I'm kicking myslef for it now. Today I was reaching for clothes in my closet, when it feels like I pulled a muscle or something in my neck, now my shoulders and back are stiff, and it hurts and I can barely move...look what I read on the internet tonight.....

"Tetanus often begins with muscle spasms in the jaw and face, together with difficulty swallowing and stiffness or pain in muscles in the neck, shoulder, or back. The muscle spasms can be severe and can quickly spread to muscles of the abdomen, upper arms, and thighs.."

Scary lol, I know I'm just letting things get to my head...but I've learned to go to the hospital when I really need to lol, and not to avoid the emergency room. I just didn't want to be sitting at the hopsital by myself, and getting stitches by myself, I need someone with me lol I'm a big baby. Anyhow, I finished my probation at work and now I'm hired...I'm extremly happy about that, I get my raise, all of my benefits, and my retroactive payment which is great.
4 days, and counting till xmas..I have so much running around to do on Friday, it's insane. Have a couple more xmas gifts to pick up..although I thought I was finished :S Well I'm getting pretty sleepy, I'm going to call it a night, and get some much needed rest.

The Sexiest Fucken song on the planet!!!!

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 17:15:40 GMT

now I know what you talkin bout, when you would say you'd wake up in the morning feelin horny ha ha ha.....this boy use to sing this song to me all of the time...he shall remain nameless :)

I can't get you out of my mind, cuz sexin you is all I see
I don't give a danm bout nothin else...
What must I say...
What must I do...
To show how much..
I think about freakin you..

Myspace

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 03:51:44 GMT

Does anyone else have a myspace......if so..add me...

http://www.myspace.com/streetstrong

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 02:49:19 GMT

So I'm baby sitting my nephew tonight, and I have Cameo. I'm sitting in, when everyone else went to Bingo... oh well at least DJD is sleeping, and Cameo is watching the Polar Bear Express. She came back from the Grandparents today... she came back with FryBread with strawberries, rice krispy squares, a gingerbread house, xmas cookies, and ginger bread man cookies...and a new puzzle...everything is so cute.. One more week till the big day!!! All my cleaning and laundry are done....finally....ready to face another week! Have to go pick up a turkey on Friday :S Cameo hasn't been in daycare for the last week now..it's costing me a fortune :( Ordered some of my fav movies from Columbia House...hope they arrive within the next month.....well I'm giong to make myslef some hot chocolate and watch the movie with Cameo......

cell phone pics with my hair straight

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 09:23:16 GMT

Just a pic taken from my cell phone...

Ha ha found this pic on your website Jonez..I remember the day exactly..at rama powwow....couldn't believe all that nasty mud! shit I have to make it to the next rama pow wow...it's my favorite..

The Martial Arts SuperStar!!!! ha ha ha

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 08:27:23 GMT

Now I heard about this video...but never thought it existed till I went on Jane-Finch.com lol...Use to chill at connections at Jane-Finch with my brother and other people...cool place..should go back soon :( Anyways, this is my boy Sophy...ha ha ha, he might laugh or kill me if he knew I posted this on my livejournal lol...can't believe this is him in the video!! So cool...wow Sophy you gonna be the next MartialArts Star huh? I love this boy, gotta give him props for doing his thing..it made me laugh...and say dayum..I didn't really know how good he was....I love ya Soph..... Your a hottie...especially when your fighting...Sophy's the guy in the white t-shirt that's walkin down the hallway...boy you gotta teach me some moves..lol

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 06:34:58 GMT

My look alike when I was growing up lol...everyone told me I looked like her, but my skins lighter now :(

Vanilla Steps this one's for you.....for years I've been telling my brother that he looks like Ben Savage from Boy Meets World..is so fucken true...I know your going to say the same..it's hilarious..
Ya my twin brother and I resemble sitcom stars lol...

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 06:20:40 GMT

He He he....wonder what Inessence is up to..their a hype group....I found their video on youtube..the light skinned guy with the corn rows sang at my sister's wedding..to bad I wasn't there, they need to get remarried so I can attend this time....can't beleive it was four years ago...love my sis Selena...

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 03:57:03 GMT

So I decided to stay in tonight, save money, and gift wrap. I'm super stressed out this week, I have to stop spending so much money...Now I'm looking forward to the holidays being over. I'm not even in the mood to celebrate NewYears anymore. I just want the holidays to be over, so my doctor can return and hand me my medical papers, so I can get them into the medical office in Ottawa, then finally hopefully...get accepted into the military! I can't wait to go to my sister's for boxing day, supposedly she has alot of gifts for Cameo..I love when Cameo opens gifts, she's been such a good girl so she deserves everything. Santas bought her everything she has asked for so I can't wait to see the smiles on her face. I don't know why I always find myself sitting in on weekends lately..I make plans with friends, and then I end up cancelling lol. It's time to meet someone, a boyfriend maybe lol...and VanillaSteps no hook ups....ha ha ha, although to tell you the truth, I'm curious to see what that guy Tyron does look like.. lol
I hope hope hope hope hope I get hired on at Open Energy next week! I'd be super Happy...I want my raise and benefits danmmit!!! I'm bored right now...hoping my brother can get a hold of his friend and we can go and chill at a bar or something.....unlikely to happen though, considering it's pretty late in the evening...

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 14:18:39 GMT

So I have no plans for the weekend............................ :( I'm going shopping today!!!! Can't wait!! I'll probably end up going to a club or to a friends house tomorrow night to chill, my sister is busy, so I won't get to go there...Vanilla Steps what are you guys doing tomorrow night? Feel like going to a bar or something let me know...I wish you could come to the mall with me today!!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 07:38:54 GMT

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 06:26:06 GMT

What's up everyone!! 2 more days left of work :) makes me happy!!! Can't wait for the weekend, cuz I'm goin out, Friday I'm going shopping. I hit up the mall in NewMarket today, and I was like dayuummm.. it's crazy..people shoving and pushing.. I just ran into Toys R Us to pick up a few toys, and got out of there before I ran into any mommy drama... It's been a good week so far.....I had the best news on Tuesday I'm terribly happy about.... Cameo's dad can't threaten me anymore, jackass, shouldn't have started in the first place, I can't stand him..but I keep my fake smile on, and try to work around things for the sake of Cameo...I don't want her to have to go through the drama I had to deal with...plus I like some members of his family, so I want to maintain a good relationship with them and my Daughter, I don't care about the relationship with her father though...one minute he wants to take off and leave her for good, the next he wants to take her from me for no reason, the only reason I can think of is because maybe his psycho girlfriend can't have kids....whatever though, I can deal with the drama....I'm to strong not to.... I'm eating ritz crackers right now their sooooo good... my friend at work gave me a recipe for ritz crackers and chicken strips....

Just cut chicken into thin strips, crunch up some ritz crackers, dip the chicken strip into a bowl containing mixed eggs and milk, then place the strip into the ritz crumbs, then throw in a frying pan loaded with butter, and cook till both sides are crisp, and your certain the middle is done...........ghetto way of giving a recipe but oh well........they are soooo good. I'm on day three of no junk food! I was going through withdrawl today, but I'm starting to feel really great now...no more makeup and no more junk food!!! I've been eating pretty healthy, and I'm starting to feel the difference, plus I started jogging, but I love running anyways, so that's a plus....can't run as much as some people I know though :S
I'm looking forward to xmas...going to midnight mass.......Cameo opening her gifts....making a ginger bread house....turkey I can't wait!!!!!! I especially can't wait for NewYears Eve.........I have plans for NewYears, and I have back up plans, so I'm covered lol...and if all else fails, I'll spend NewYears at the fallsview Casino with my sexy mommy dearest...I can pick up more men when I'm with my mom, then when I'm with anyone else..it's crazy, and strange, but we kick it cool!!!!!!! Well I have to get to Shoppers and pick up wrapping paper, no one else wrapping paper shops at this time, but I'm one in a million so I'm safe ha ha....
Kimberleigh

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 06:10:14 GMT

Okay so......Youtube totally stopped letting me watch Tell Me from druhill and that pisses me off lol cuz I love that song.....but here's another one of my fav love songs!!
From back in the day.....I've been weak in the knees by someone once or twice...... ;)

This second one is just cool..................

RezOfficial

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 09:56:25 GMT

My favorite indian rapper...reppin us Nativez!! Native Pride...stand up *what~
Proud to be Native, especially seein our artists on the up and coming ;)

The rest of muh fav videos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mad Hype..watch em

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 09:10:19 GMT

This Video reminds me of back in the day when Junior, Omar and Nikki, the rest of the boys use to sing this song to me....dayum they spoiled me sooo much with attention :P Now I'm a diva because of those guys lol.. It's by Dru Hill....and when ya just feelin sexy and need to get ya freak on with that certain someone ha ha ha, you should throw this song on...........

"Now it's not my style I can not lie you know I like to serve it on the freaky side"

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 08:58:19 GMT

My favorite Video....

Ha...Send me an angel to heal my broken heart, from bein in love.....we've all lost someone close to us.....sometimes it's to hard to go through

Now you had me on my knees, beggin God Please...to send you back to me....

Keep It gangsta...

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 08:53:29 GMT

Love the Cwalk...the sexiest dance a fella can do.....

HaHa long way 2 go lyrics...dayum it's true

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 08:27:09 GMT

i love it when they try to get intimate
even though they know i really ain't into it
i'm not into it
i already know the game and i've been through it
see i buy my own bags, my boots, my jeans
wear la rok with my rebel yell underneath
you wanna step to me?
said you gotta long way 2 go

you claim that you're so hot
and you say you got skills in the bedroom
you try to flirt when you're so not
had a chance you still never come through
you say you wanna come and see me
cuz you know your girlfriend wanna be me
i'ma tell you why you can't
said you gotta long way 2 go
say you wanna love me?

wanna love me? wanna touch me?
think twice cuz you gotta long way 2 go
don't know howda act, bettah fall back
it's like that cuz you gotta long way 2 go
it's not that deep, take it easy, you wanna please me?
got a long way 2 go, i'ma bad girl
you wanna get close? ease up cuz you gotta a long way

i love it when they try to get scandalous
even though they know they really can't handle it
they can't handle it
try and take me out to dinner, i'll cancel it
if you really wanna know me first of all
you should never try to get to personal
cuz i'm in it when i say:
that you gotta long way to go

wanna love me? wanna touch me?
think twice cuz you gotta long way 2 go
don't know howda act, bettah fall back
it's like that cuz you gotta long way 2 go
it's not that deep, take it easy, you wanna please me?
got a long way 2 go, i'ma bad girl
you wanna get close? ease up cuz you gotta a long way

you claim that you're so hot
and you say you got skills in the bedroom
you try to flirt when you're so not
had a chance you still never come through
you say you wanna come and see me
cuz you know your girlfriend wanna be me
said you gotta long way 2 go
say you wanna love me?

wanna love me? wanna touch me?
think twice cuz you gotta long way 2 go
don't know howda act, bettah fall back
it's like that cuz you gotta long way 2 go
it's not that deep, take it easy, you wanna please me?
got a long way 2 go, i said you gotta long way to go
rock wit me now, you gotta long way to go
bettah fall back, said you gotta long way to go

Cassie

*Street Strong*